Reader’s Digestive

*for all intents and purposes;;

 

“co moje
 to twoje”

 

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pain in my gut, groin

what do you mean
why do you mean

 

craving reaching
let me go
let me have my growth spurt

 

making me explain
feelings you can’t measure

stop peering into my belly button
there’s no lint
but blood

 

listening to my torso
but not the heart
who gives you these ideas, anyway?

 

 

*for all intensive purposes

 

 

 

pretty, anxious

“how do you know anything is real”

::

“you don’t”

“that’s irrelevant”

“because it’s a shared world”

“if it’s real to you, it’s real”



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I don’t want to do anything

I want to sleep and sit on swingsets

I don’t want to do anything




what did I lose and where did I leave it

 


;

it’s exhausting to be so terrified of living
fears I own, fears that don’t belong to me, fear of fearing


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Crooked bastards
always with the secrets”
and sly gestures
stirring up milky dust




which stage is this?

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your love is unlike mine
I am massive in my virtue
absolutely cherubic
cute, huh?
no, seriously

but she
she’s pretty
big eyes
big breasts
no soul


I shouldn’t have looked

whatever.











fail forever

Activity 7

Mixed feelings, baby, mixed feels.



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(Draft circa September 5, 2014)

sunshine, turpentine, toothpaste.

I’ve always loved you (gritty).


(9/20/2014)

be cool, in front of your friends.

that’s right.

keep your composure
inquire about your ex girlfriend nonchalantly
let me lean on your arm, grapple me like a new toy

that’s better.


(9/21/2014)

I think you lack purity
but you leak testosterone

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Opacity

opacity

 

 

Should I change my definition of true love?

My ideals seem to conflict with those of my adversaries//lovers

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I took his car
I drove to your house
I entered through the back door.
I was unashamed….

but then
I realized you were sleeping
and you are not my secretkeeper

I ran
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when will this cease
is this peace

I want love without bounds
but on my terms.
please sign here

 

 

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