pretty, anxious

“how do you know anything is real”

::

“you don’t”

“that’s irrelevant”

“because it’s a shared world”

“if it’s real to you, it’s real”



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I don’t want to do anything

I want to sleep and sit on swingsets

I don’t want to do anything




what did I lose and where did I leave it

 


;

it’s exhausting to be so terrified of living
fears I own, fears that don’t belong to me, fear of fearing


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Crooked bastards
always with the secrets”
and sly gestures
stirring up milky dust




which stage is this?

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your love is unlike mine
I am massive in my virtue
absolutely cherubic
cute, huh?
no, seriously

but she
she’s pretty
big eyes
big breasts
no soul


I shouldn’t have looked

whatever.











fail forever

Activity 7

Mixed feelings, baby, mixed feels.



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(Draft circa September 5, 2014)

sunshine, turpentine, toothpaste.

I’ve always loved you (gritty).


(9/20/2014)

be cool, in front of your friends.

that’s right.

keep your composure
inquire about your ex girlfriend nonchalantly
let me lean on your arm, grapple me like a new toy

that’s better.


(9/21/2014)

I think you lack purity
but you leak testosterone

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