Opacity

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Should I change my definition of true love?

My ideals seem to conflict with those of my adversaries//lovers

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I took his car
I drove to your house
I entered through the back door.
I was unashamed….

but then
I realized you were sleeping
and you are not my secretkeeper

I ran
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when will this cease
is this peace

I want love without bounds
but on my terms.
please sign here

 

 

x___________________

Ladles

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I’m not safe anywhere
any where
no one knows the gravity
pavement is the lowest they’ll go 

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stale atmosphere in the kitchen.
we only get along enough to pass the cutting board-

I hate you. I loathe you
stop projecting your guilt onto us
you’re a grandfather 15 years too late
it shows in your hair
not mine

I saw a recent photograph of my grandmother
it’s lying on the fridge right now.

I fear
a dusty rosary
an unfinished crossword puzzle
a silent apartment
no Sunday phone calls
a childhood’s end
time

PLEASE DON’T LEAVE
I’ll do anything
please
I’m desperate, no dignity
you must stay

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lover
I yearn to ask
if you still love her
if I’m second best
if you’re certain
If
if
if 

if

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how can I fill your void
If I can’t fill my own?

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Grandmother, a bowl of my favorite soup, please
you were my first
and only 
figure

everyone is leaving
but you’re the one I can’t let go

Smokeroom talks

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chapter 1

___________

“they would run. if someone got hurt, or jumped,
they would run.”

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“he’s soooo beta”

 

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“In person. That’s where it’s at.
Imagine: I’m walking across the Sahara,
and I run into you, you attract my attention instantly.
We connect for that brief moment in time, and then we part ways.
5 years later, I am strolling through a crowded street in Italy.
The moment is blurred as I pick your face out of the crowd, I notice you before anybody.
The intensity of that moment is incomparable
to sending some shitty text to you.

I prefer that.”

 

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Poachers

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“If I were rich, I’d be an alcoholic.”

“tell me something more beautiful”

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I don’t want to be your girlfriend
I just want to take your picture.

 

I’m just a doll

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feed me, I’m pretty

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Escape Artist

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Pt. I

“You can tell me to shut up, you know”
“…but if you stop talking, I’ll stop laughing.”

 

Pt. II

(suddenly, without warning):
“you’re one of a kind.”

 

Pt. III

“This is a relationship. I mean, it is something.”

 

 

I can Houdini myself out of any situation.
or so I think.

I think I can escape the weight.
Mother, thank you for taking my burdens
all this time
but I can no longer lay them on you
I’ll be the mother figure now
adorn me with flowers.

 

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I can understand why
you couldn’t bear to face the woman in the supermarket
who wore my perfume

we started out sweet like wind chimes and spring rain
then ended up lurid like Hannibal and Clarice

you were my favorite friend
but I’ll never love the likes of you again